Throughout it all, I gave it everything that I had. I had always been told that sometimes “everything is not enough” but had yet to experience it. They define failure as a lack of success but is it failure if we had originally agreed not to have any expectations and take it slow?
“Thing is if we just keep it casual, no one will have any expectations,” we kept on trying to fool ourselves to believe. By just the second month of ‘keeping it casual’, I knew that the casual thing was not for me. That’s when, surprisingly you began to start being distant.
By month four, we were not even talking for days, with just regular ‘I hope you are doing well’ which were not well thought of. In the end, I gave it all I had and maybe that is why I am feeling like a failure.
I guess what I am trying to say is, “I am sorry I failed you.”